Sometimes I think about the future.

So the last blog post was a little depressing, I apologize, but my heart was hurting that night and I felt better as soon as I wrote about it. 

So today's post is just about a little something I've realized.  I'm so thankful I decided to go to college to further my education.  I'm going to be a teacher!

BUT right now...I work in a grease pit.  I flip burgers, I make pizza, I make every kind of shake you could think of. And then I clean it all up.  All of that, plus the food you, the customer, decided to spill or smash in every possible crease and crevice of Big J's.
And I get paid just a quarter over minimum wage. 
Tonight was a rough night at work, which made me even more thankful for going to college!  After I get my degree, I won't have to work in a food joint EVER again.  Thank heavens!   I can't wait to have a job where I actually enjoy working and I enjoy the people I work with:

Children!

Oh and I also realized today that today would've been a real nice day to go to the future, 15 years from now, married to a billionaire, sipping an ice cold lemonade on the beach...
instead of taking a 30 minute shower ridding myself of the insane amounts of grease lodged in my pours.

This isn't a depressing post. It's just one of me conveying my excitement for the future. The future that won't hold a fast food joint.
Thank you and goodnight :)

I never told you.

I miss those blue eyes, how you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise, like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you what I should have said
No, I never told you, I just held it in

And now I miss everything about you
I can't believe it, I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you, without you....

Colbie Caillat! You preach it!

I've just been taken back to my 16 year old self. As I lay in bed listening to sappy songs because I miss you. I've handled it until now, but today....
Not so much.
And that's okay. Because I have the right to.
Tomorrow I will be fine! It's a new day!
But right now, I'll just imagine you
holding me,
tickling my face until I fall asleep.

Sweet...19!

Good morning!
I don't blog ever....I should work on that. In recent news: It's my birthday today...and I turned the big 19! So...I should probably change the name of my blog, but I don't think I'm going to because I don't feel 19 yet. Is there anything exciting about being 19? Haha...Maybe next year I'll change it.

So I'm sitting here in the I-center on campus and I'm just in love with this day. Not only because it's my birthday, but because I only have 1 class today! Two of my classes were canceled and it's a glorious thing!...and I finished my homework RIGHT before it was due...like literally right before....like 30 seconds. FABULOUS! I didn't have a chance to get my homework done last night because I went to Family Home Evening in my student ward. I didn't get home until 12:30 AM.

I don't know why I'm so wide awake right now. I didn't go to bed until 2 in the morning and then I got up at 6:30 to talk to my mommy...to tell her about last night :)

Last night was SO fabulous. However I can't tell you about it until later, I don't know what's happening...But I'll just tell you that I'm in like SO in like with someone...and I think he likes me back. Which is just FUN!
So it's my birthday and I'm twitter-pated and today is just a good day!
It's a great day to be alive!
Here's to the start of my 19th year!
Kiah

That was harder than expected...

I made a hard decision this week.
I'm so glad I'm close to my Heavenly Father and I know that He knows what's best for me.

Let me give you a little background:
Earlier in January I was offered a teaching assistant job.
They offered to pay for my housing and travel to and from the school.
....and a pretty salary :)
I would've been teaching in a British School.
Yes, sweet Kindergarten-age British children!
In Beijing, China!
For one whole year! (August 2012-July 2013)

I immediately spoke with the academic counseling center on campus and they told me I wouldn't have to drop out of college, I could take online classes and treat it like an internship/study abroad type thing.
Everything was working out perfect!!
.....needless to say......
I was floored. I was stoked. I was ready to jump on a plane right that second. I literally have no words to explain my excitement!
But right after that surge of pure excitement, I knew I had to pray about it.
I didn't just pray once. I prayed for weeks, multiple times a day.
Something just didn't feel right.

I knew Heavenly Father didn't want me there.
It makes me so sad, but I know I'm supposed to be here.
I sure don't know why, but I am!
I found a video tonight of a college student teaching English to young students in China. Those children were so precious in that video and I just sobbed the whole way through. I haven't cried that hard in SUCH a long time.

Precious video of China students:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gn1qm0WzGbI
I think now that I've had a good cry over it, I'll be fine. One day I'll be able to teach children, now just wasn't my time.
God works in mysterious ways,
Kiah

Find a penny, pick it up....

Sometimes I have crummy days.
Today was a crummy day.

Ten reasons why today crumbs:
1. I'm supposed to be on campus...at the dance...dancing right now.
2. Instead I'm sitting in front of the computer.
3. My ex boyfriend is at the dance I'm supposed to be dancing at right now.
4. It makes me upset that my ex is having fun at the dance right now.
5. There is no reason #3 should make my day crummy
6. Despite the logic #5.....I'm still choosing to be upset.
7. I ate McDonald's food.
8. I only got 2 hours at work today.
9. I still haven't done my homework.
10.I tried to take a picture of my new haircut, but my camera batteries died.

So now that I've complained. Let me lighten the mood of this post.
I got my hair cut today.
Well, just a trim, but it still feels like I cut it.
I got side swept bangs that are super cute.

And I feel like an Elephant.

Tonight after I ate McDonald's (and felt super disgusting), I had to go to Walmart to buy a straightener (mine finally bit the dust). Anyways, I go to the check out line and there was a fantastically attractive guy at the register. And it was too late to hurry and go to another line, we already made eye-contact.
Shoot.
So I put my straightener on the counter and he rings it up and we make THE small talk.
Me: Hello *said as sweetly as I could considering my crumminess*
(Attractive guy *insert name brad*)
Brad: Hello, how are you today.
Me: Oh I'm fine, thanks, how are you?
Brad: I'm very well thank you. Your total is____*insert X amout of dollars here*

I just realized I have NO reason to tell you our dialog. So...I'm just going to stop right there.
Anyways he gives me my change back and then he was kinda looking on the ground as I was reaching for my bag.
Then he said he found a penny. (a lucky one of course)
Then he looked at me and flicked it into my bag.

He probably meant nothing by it, but I thought it was real thoughtful for a guy of his attractiveness to stoop down to my level and give me a lucky penny.

To you unknown Walmart employee, I say thank you.
You made my day less crummy.
And that penny did have a little luck, enough to make my night a little better.

How is that for my first 2o12 post?
Crummy. I know.
Do you know what else is crummy?
I'm pretty sure I've been spelling crummy wrong.

Oh and if you're a student at BYU-Idaho there's a dance at the Hart tonight.
$1 with your I-card.

Kiah