That was harder than expected...

I made a hard decision this week.
I'm so glad I'm close to my Heavenly Father and I know that He knows what's best for me.

Let me give you a little background:
Earlier in January I was offered a teaching assistant job.
They offered to pay for my housing and travel to and from the school.
....and a pretty salary :)
I would've been teaching in a British School.
Yes, sweet Kindergarten-age British children!
In Beijing, China!
For one whole year! (August 2012-July 2013)

I immediately spoke with the academic counseling center on campus and they told me I wouldn't have to drop out of college, I could take online classes and treat it like an internship/study abroad type thing.
Everything was working out perfect!!
.....needless to say......
I was floored. I was stoked. I was ready to jump on a plane right that second. I literally have no words to explain my excitement!
But right after that surge of pure excitement, I knew I had to pray about it.
I didn't just pray once. I prayed for weeks, multiple times a day.
Something just didn't feel right.

I knew Heavenly Father didn't want me there.
It makes me so sad, but I know I'm supposed to be here.
I sure don't know why, but I am!
I found a video tonight of a college student teaching English to young students in China. Those children were so precious in that video and I just sobbed the whole way through. I haven't cried that hard in SUCH a long time.

Precious video of China students:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gn1qm0WzGbI
I think now that I've had a good cry over it, I'll be fine. One day I'll be able to teach children, now just wasn't my time.
God works in mysterious ways,
Kiah