Sweet...19!

Good morning!
I don't blog ever....I should work on that. In recent news: It's my birthday today...and I turned the big 19! So...I should probably change the name of my blog, but I don't think I'm going to because I don't feel 19 yet. Is there anything exciting about being 19? Haha...Maybe next year I'll change it.

So I'm sitting here in the I-center on campus and I'm just in love with this day. Not only because it's my birthday, but because I only have 1 class today! Two of my classes were canceled and it's a glorious thing!...and I finished my homework RIGHT before it was due...like literally right before....like 30 seconds. FABULOUS! I didn't have a chance to get my homework done last night because I went to Family Home Evening in my student ward. I didn't get home until 12:30 AM.

I don't know why I'm so wide awake right now. I didn't go to bed until 2 in the morning and then I got up at 6:30 to talk to my mommy...to tell her about last night :)

Last night was SO fabulous. However I can't tell you about it until later, I don't know what's happening...But I'll just tell you that I'm in like SO in like with someone...and I think he likes me back. Which is just FUN!
So it's my birthday and I'm twitter-pated and today is just a good day!
It's a great day to be alive!
Here's to the start of my 19th year!
Kiah

That was harder than expected...

I made a hard decision this week.
I'm so glad I'm close to my Heavenly Father and I know that He knows what's best for me.

Let me give you a little background:
Earlier in January I was offered a teaching assistant job.
They offered to pay for my housing and travel to and from the school.
....and a pretty salary :)
I would've been teaching in a British School.
Yes, sweet Kindergarten-age British children!
In Beijing, China!
For one whole year! (August 2012-July 2013)

I immediately spoke with the academic counseling center on campus and they told me I wouldn't have to drop out of college, I could take online classes and treat it like an internship/study abroad type thing.
Everything was working out perfect!!
.....needless to say......
I was floored. I was stoked. I was ready to jump on a plane right that second. I literally have no words to explain my excitement!
But right after that surge of pure excitement, I knew I had to pray about it.
I didn't just pray once. I prayed for weeks, multiple times a day.
Something just didn't feel right.

I knew Heavenly Father didn't want me there.
It makes me so sad, but I know I'm supposed to be here.
I sure don't know why, but I am!
I found a video tonight of a college student teaching English to young students in China. Those children were so precious in that video and I just sobbed the whole way through. I haven't cried that hard in SUCH a long time.

Precious video of China students:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gn1qm0WzGbI
I think now that I've had a good cry over it, I'll be fine. One day I'll be able to teach children, now just wasn't my time.
God works in mysterious ways,
Kiah