Sometimes I think about the future.

So the last blog post was a little depressing, I apologize, but my heart was hurting that night and I felt better as soon as I wrote about it. 

So today's post is just about a little something I've realized.  I'm so thankful I decided to go to college to further my education.  I'm going to be a teacher!

BUT right now...I work in a grease pit.  I flip burgers, I make pizza, I make every kind of shake you could think of. And then I clean it all up.  All of that, plus the food you, the customer, decided to spill or smash in every possible crease and crevice of Big J's.
And I get paid just a quarter over minimum wage. 
Tonight was a rough night at work, which made me even more thankful for going to college!  After I get my degree, I won't have to work in a food joint EVER again.  Thank heavens!   I can't wait to have a job where I actually enjoy working and I enjoy the people I work with:

Children!

Oh and I also realized today that today would've been a real nice day to go to the future, 15 years from now, married to a billionaire, sipping an ice cold lemonade on the beach...
instead of taking a 30 minute shower ridding myself of the insane amounts of grease lodged in my pours.

This isn't a depressing post. It's just one of me conveying my excitement for the future. The future that won't hold a fast food joint.
Thank you and goodnight :)

I never told you.

I miss those blue eyes, how you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise, like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you what I should have said
No, I never told you, I just held it in

And now I miss everything about you
I can't believe it, I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you, without you....

Colbie Caillat! You preach it!

I've just been taken back to my 16 year old self. As I lay in bed listening to sappy songs because I miss you. I've handled it until now, but today....
Not so much.
And that's okay. Because I have the right to.
Tomorrow I will be fine! It's a new day!
But right now, I'll just imagine you
holding me,
tickling my face until I fall asleep.

Sweet...19!

Good morning!
I don't blog ever....I should work on that. In recent news: It's my birthday today...and I turned the big 19! So...I should probably change the name of my blog, but I don't think I'm going to because I don't feel 19 yet. Is there anything exciting about being 19? Haha...Maybe next year I'll change it.

So I'm sitting here in the I-center on campus and I'm just in love with this day. Not only because it's my birthday, but because I only have 1 class today! Two of my classes were canceled and it's a glorious thing!...and I finished my homework RIGHT before it was due...like literally right before....like 30 seconds. FABULOUS! I didn't have a chance to get my homework done last night because I went to Family Home Evening in my student ward. I didn't get home until 12:30 AM.

I don't know why I'm so wide awake right now. I didn't go to bed until 2 in the morning and then I got up at 6:30 to talk to my mommy...to tell her about last night :)

Last night was SO fabulous. However I can't tell you about it until later, I don't know what's happening...But I'll just tell you that I'm in like SO in like with someone...and I think he likes me back. Which is just FUN!
So it's my birthday and I'm twitter-pated and today is just a good day!
It's a great day to be alive!
Here's to the start of my 19th year!
Kiah

That was harder than expected...

I made a hard decision this week.
I'm so glad I'm close to my Heavenly Father and I know that He knows what's best for me.

Let me give you a little background:
Earlier in January I was offered a teaching assistant job.
They offered to pay for my housing and travel to and from the school.
....and a pretty salary :)
I would've been teaching in a British School.
Yes, sweet Kindergarten-age British children!
In Beijing, China!
For one whole year! (August 2012-July 2013)

I immediately spoke with the academic counseling center on campus and they told me I wouldn't have to drop out of college, I could take online classes and treat it like an internship/study abroad type thing.
Everything was working out perfect!!
.....needless to say......
I was floored. I was stoked. I was ready to jump on a plane right that second. I literally have no words to explain my excitement!
But right after that surge of pure excitement, I knew I had to pray about it.
I didn't just pray once. I prayed for weeks, multiple times a day.
Something just didn't feel right.

I knew Heavenly Father didn't want me there.
It makes me so sad, but I know I'm supposed to be here.
I sure don't know why, but I am!
I found a video tonight of a college student teaching English to young students in China. Those children were so precious in that video and I just sobbed the whole way through. I haven't cried that hard in SUCH a long time.

Precious video of China students:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gn1qm0WzGbI
I think now that I've had a good cry over it, I'll be fine. One day I'll be able to teach children, now just wasn't my time.
God works in mysterious ways,
Kiah

Find a penny, pick it up....

Sometimes I have crummy days.
Today was a crummy day.

Ten reasons why today crumbs:
1. I'm supposed to be on campus...at the dance...dancing right now.
2. Instead I'm sitting in front of the computer.
3. My ex boyfriend is at the dance I'm supposed to be dancing at right now.
4. It makes me upset that my ex is having fun at the dance right now.
5. There is no reason #3 should make my day crummy
6. Despite the logic #5.....I'm still choosing to be upset.
7. I ate McDonald's food.
8. I only got 2 hours at work today.
9. I still haven't done my homework.
10.I tried to take a picture of my new haircut, but my camera batteries died.

So now that I've complained. Let me lighten the mood of this post.
I got my hair cut today.
Well, just a trim, but it still feels like I cut it.
I got side swept bangs that are super cute.

And I feel like an Elephant.

Tonight after I ate McDonald's (and felt super disgusting), I had to go to Walmart to buy a straightener (mine finally bit the dust). Anyways, I go to the check out line and there was a fantastically attractive guy at the register. And it was too late to hurry and go to another line, we already made eye-contact.
Shoot.
So I put my straightener on the counter and he rings it up and we make THE small talk.
Me: Hello *said as sweetly as I could considering my crumminess*
(Attractive guy *insert name brad*)
Brad: Hello, how are you today.
Me: Oh I'm fine, thanks, how are you?
Brad: I'm very well thank you. Your total is____*insert X amout of dollars here*

I just realized I have NO reason to tell you our dialog. So...I'm just going to stop right there.
Anyways he gives me my change back and then he was kinda looking on the ground as I was reaching for my bag.
Then he said he found a penny. (a lucky one of course)
Then he looked at me and flicked it into my bag.

He probably meant nothing by it, but I thought it was real thoughtful for a guy of his attractiveness to stoop down to my level and give me a lucky penny.

To you unknown Walmart employee, I say thank you.
You made my day less crummy.
And that penny did have a little luck, enough to make my night a little better.

How is that for my first 2o12 post?
Crummy. I know.
Do you know what else is crummy?
I'm pretty sure I've been spelling crummy wrong.

Oh and if you're a student at BYU-Idaho there's a dance at the Hart tonight.
$1 with your I-card.

Kiah

My Top 11 of 2011

Happy New Year's EVE!!!
I can't believe a whole year has come and gone already! 2011 was a crazy year, and I'm so excited for the start of a new one! I got the idea of posting my top 11 from my friend's blog and I thought it was a great idea so here it goes!!

My Top 11 of 2011

11. On January 05, 2011 I decided I wanted to be a Kindergarten Teacher. I got to be a peer tutor in Ms. Scott's Kindergarten class during my Senior year and I fell in love with all those sweet 5 and 6 year olds.10. I became an adult on February 21, 2011. Yes I turned Sweet Eighteen! However, nothing of great consequence became of it ;) (Yes adults go mini golfing on their birthday...)09. On April 29, 2011 I went on a trip with the youth in our stake to Salt Lake City, Utah. First stop: Temple Square. That was the first time I had ever seen the Salt Lake Temple. That was the day I decided I'm going to marry in the Salt Lake Temple, for time and all eternity.08. Speaking of first timers: On May 10-14, 2011 I got to go to Disneyland! Yes, Disneyland, for the first time. And I think I would've been content just traveling around California, it was a beautiful trip.07. I finally graduated High School on May 25, 2011. It was a long time coming, and I was so grateful to be done.06. I was accepted to Brigham Young University-Idaho on the Fall/Winter track. I was SO excited to start college and start a new chapter of my life.
05. I became more goal-oriented and I had a better view of what I needed to do with my life.04. From September-December 2011 I experienced all-nighters and a horrific homework load, but I trudged through it and I'm so proud that I worked through it!

03. On December 15, 2011 I officially finished my first semester of college with three B+'s and two B's and one B- I am so pleased!!02. I fulfilled my dream of seeing an Irishman in the flesh. My friend and I went to a Celtic Thunder concert, which meant 6 beautiful Irish lads stood before us for about two heaven-sent hours.01. Okay so this is technically in November 2010, but it was part of my Senior year which was technically this year, so I'm just going to use it. In November, I auditioned and got the part of Anita in the High School Production of West Side Story. It was one of my biggest accomplishments. I love to sing and I love to dance, but I've never done it in front of an audience before. It was such an amazing experience and I was so proud of myself for doing it.I'm so proud of 2011. I did a lot of things I never thought I would be able to do. 2011 gave me a confidence boost and I'm ready to knock 2012 in the face! I'm so ready to see what this new year will bring.

Happy New Year!
Kiah

Back to the Grind.....

So my life in a nutshell:

School?= Stressful.
Stressful?= Weight gain.
Weight gain?= Depression.
Depression?= Bad.
Bad?= Carbohydrates.
Carbohydrates?= Good.
Good?= Exercising.
Exercising?= Enjoyable.
Enjoyable?= Eating.
Eating?= Yummy.
Yummy?= Holidays.
Holidays?= Weight gain.
Weight gain?=...etc

So I really need to kick it into gear people. I need to figure out how the heck I'm going to motivate myself to eat right.
I've got the exercising down. I love to exercise.
But the freaking food? I love it way too much. :(
You health gurus out there? How do I not eat?
Ugh, I know the answer, I guess I just don't want to do it.
Curse you food.
I will get the best of you. And when I do. I will do it with flying colors.

Good luck to me!
Kiah

And so it begins....

It's finally here.
The week all college students talk about.

Finals week.... Oh..fetch.
This week is going to have me doing a whole lot of...

THIS:











And....
THIS:
















And
THIS:
















And
Probably not a whole lot of
THIS:











Well....
I can't wait!!!
So the sad thing about finals is that I'm done with this semester! For good!

A couple of my classes ended last Friday and I had to say goodbye to some great people I met in each class. It was a lot harder than I thought it was going to be.
At BYU-Idaho everyone is like family. However, the school is so HUGE, the chances I'll see my brothers and sisters from this semester are quite slim :(
So that was kinda too-much-for-me-to-handle-sad.

But don't let me fool you! I'm so happy to be moving on to a new semester in January. Hooray for meeting new people and starting fresh!
Life is hitting me, and it's hitting me FAST! I just pray I can catch up!
Oh...and here's to finals week!
Kiah

We be Cheezin'

Today I had a little extra leisure time thanks to my lovely cousin Liz!
I'm writing about her for my Writing and Reasoning class. We had to write about someone that was an "other" to us...meaning opposite or different...or more awesome. Yes, Liz and I are opposite girls, but we have SO much fun together. Opposites attract, right? One of my favorite memories with her happened when we were both ten. We got to stay at our Grandma Henrikson's house for one week. She taught us everything from sewing to cooking. It was a real blast :D


Okay so funny story: Liz and I shared dresser drawers while we stayed there, and she had a "real" bra. Haha, I don't know if she remembers this, but she made fun of my "training" bra and told me that I wasn't mature yet because I didn't have a padded bra. I was so discouraged. I thought I was so cool because I could wear a bra, and then she was like, "Ew, no who do you think you are? Ya, so Liz has always been the cool older cousin that got to experience everything before I did. Maybe that's why she's so cool, she's like the big sister I never had!
So anyways I wrote about Liz...and she was awesome and answered questions for me. Which made writing a paper about her, that much easier :) She's such an awesome girl, and I love her to death!Isn't she gorgeous!!! Ya, we're family :) She just got all the good looks!

Go. Just...go. Go do something.
Kiah

100 Days of Dance!

Okay....So while I was faithfully doing my homework...*cough, cough*
I read an article about Kirstie Alley. You know Kirstie Alley, the one that was a spokeswoman for Jenny Craig.....
You know, "Have you called Jenny yet?"

....So anyways, she was talking about her New Year's Resolutions and one of them is
100 Days of Dance.
Ya. 100 Days of Dance! That's what she's calling it. I'm DEFINITELY a fan.
I love to dance. I love Kirstie Alley. And 100 days...psh that's nothing!
So I'm going to do it with her.
100 CONSECUTIVE days of dance.
I'm going to post what I do each day. I think it sounded like a fun way to get in shape :)
And goodness knows this chick needs to get in shape.
So here's to my New Year's Resolution that's going to start on December 1st...since I really want to start. January 1st is too far away!
You guys should join me, and tell me about your progress!
Here's to dance!!
Kiah

I like messin' with the law.

So this weekend was just overflowing with excitement! Like for real...
Friday night I got pulled over for the first time.
I got pulled over for something OUTRAGEOUS.

Drunk. Frickin. Driving.

Was I drunk? Not in the littlest bit.
Do I drink? Not in the littlest bit. EVER.
Do I act like I'm drunk? Yes.
Do I wish I was drunk. Yes....*cough* no......
....Do any of these things matter? No, not in the littlest bit.

So my Hannah Katherine and I went on a little trip to Rexburg to get us some McDonald's.
Yes. Some McDonald's. At 10 in the PM
We got some shakes. And a three piece Chicken Selects to share.
We chilled at McDonald's until....midnight-ish.
We went for a drive. On our drive we saw about 3 cops.
I casually ask, "Hannah, have you ever been pulled over before?"
Hannah: "Yes."
Me: "Oh ya I remember that, 'Nathan switch me seats.' Haha, good times."
Me:"I'm pretty sure I'd pee my pants, or cry if I ever get pulled over."
We started back on the highway for home.
Not even 5 seconds later....I see flashing blue and red lights....coming for me.
"Me: Ew. What???"
So the cop pulls me over. He sits in his little cop car for like 5 minutes, finally comes over to us. And then asks: "Where are we coming from tonight?"
Me: "McDonald's"
Cop: "What happened at McDonald's?"
Hannah: "Shakes."
Cop: "Anything else I should know about?"
Me (inside my head): "HE THINKS WE'RE DRUNK?!"
Cop: "You ran over the fog lines a FEW times."
Me: "What's a fog line?"
Cop: "The WHITE lines."
Me: "Oh, I didn't notice. I'm cold, maybe I was adjusting the heat and a swerved and didn't notice."
Cop: "I'm going to need to see your license and registration. And just because I think you're intoxicated, I'm going to need to see you're insurance. I've had too many drunk driving accidents where the insurance didn't cover anything."
Me: "I've never been pulled over before, I don't even know what any of that looks like."

Hannah just knows everything and pulls all the documents out. I'm so glad she was there with me :)
We find the insurance, but it's expired. Oops.
Hannah: "A few times is like 3!! We just got pulled over for drunk driving!!!"

So long story short, he gave me a warning for being intoxicated (which I most definitely wasn't). Then he wrote me a $126.50 ticket for my expired insurance.
I have a court date to waiver the ticket if I can find proof of my valid insurance.
So yes. Hannah and I are just really excited we had that experience together.

Of course, I would be pulled over for drunk driving.

This is the Potential Break-up Song

Okay so the title was a little much...I just really like that song...and....yes.
So...Brayden?.....we broke up.
It was a mutual decision. One that we talked about for 2 hours.
We dated for 1 month. It was real, he was real. It was awesome while it lasted.
I won't go into details, this is my blog, it's my life story, but he was a part of it. I know he's reading this so I'll just keep this simple:
There are no hard feelings. We came to the agreement to be friends, and everything is going to be okay.
It's time to move on. I feel like something is coming. Something big. I don't know what it is, but I know whatever it is...I'll be able to handle it.

I'm so thankful to Brayden for teaching me so much while we were together. He's brilliant. I'm so excited for him to go on a mission and teach those people set aside for him to teach. And I'm so thankful to still be his friend.
He's genuine and kind.
You can never have too many of those special people in your life. I'm so glad we found each other when we did. He definitely saved me more than once. But now, it's time for me to focus on school. Focus on me. Focus on the life I want to have.
This transition will be good for me. I've always had someone there for me...but it's time for me to go off on my own. I need to be me.
I kinda feel like this right now....it's an awesome feeling: